The Wait...

This is a page from the diary of a girl who's waiting...

Day 15

6am. Wake up. Check e-mail. Check cell for missed calls... nothing. Go to bathroom, wash up. Carry cell in housecoat pocket. Wash woollens. Check PC. Put wet woollens out in sun to dry. Check PC. Put noodles to boil in pan, come and check PC. Go down to kitchen again, strain noodles, chop carrots, beans and onions. Check PC. Light fry eggs, shred them. Check PC. Make noodles, make tea. Check PC.

8am. Sit down for breakfast. Play with noodle on plate for 15 mins. Gets cold. Throw food in dustbin. Check PC. Look at cell. Take bath, dress up for work. Bring in woolens from outside, place them on dry-line. Check PC before leaving.

10am. Enter office. Switch on room lights, and PC. Check. Take out exam papers. Correct. Sarita, good! Thomas, horrible! Check PC. Knock at door! Look up… Dorothy. Need signature for study tour. Phone rings. Scramble to get from bag… Juri. Checking whether school friends’ get-together is still on. Knock at door! Kong enters asking whether tea is needed. Nod head, take tea and jingbam.

12 noon. Go to lab, check out whether all necessities present. Come back to room. Check PC. Check cell. Check slides for class. Ready. Enter classroom. Students wish. Take class. Show slides. Wish the best for final exams. Come out. Back to room. Check PC. Check cell.

2pm. Phone rings. Mother asking whether will be home for weekends. Knock at door. Swarnalee with queries. Check PC, 2 new mails in inbox. False alarms. Headache from tension, strain, cold. Put on halogen heater, place near table. Knock at door. Kong comes with tea. Make trip to AB, put in LTC papers. See old lecherous Orange-Top on way. Give cold stare. Reach office. Check PC.

4pm. Visit Flirt-with-students Sir’s office. Chat 10 mins about paper setting. Come back. Check PC. Go to I’m-the-best Ma’am’s office. Discuss LTC. Come back. Check PC. Nothing. Sit down to finishing writing paper for Science Congress. Added one word. Knock at door. Genial Sir wants to discuss pathology. Leaves in 15 mins. Check e-mail. None.

6pm. Look out window. Dark outside. Pack up things. Check e-mail. Switch off PC, heater, lights. Leave for home. Reach home. Switch on PC, check. Change clothes, wash up. Check PC. Take out rice, vegetables to cook. No enthusiasm, no hunger. Put vegetables back in fridge. Take out bread. Butter one slice, eat it.

8pm. Switch on TV. Same stories . Mayavati. Pak reply- India reply. Freida Pinto. Look at self. Look at shoulder-length hair trying to grow longer on somebody’s request. Decide to cut it short. Check e-mail. Nothing. Take out clothes to wear to work next day. Remember somebody telling not to buy clothes in economic meltdown. Decide to go shopping next day.

10pm. No e-mails, no calls, no visits. Headache from checking a/c every 10 mins. Neck excruciatingly painful trying to see over shoulder every 5 mins. Switch off TV. Go to bed. Carry Perry Mason novel.

12midnight. Trying to sleep. Tossing and turning. No use.

Tired! Need to Sleep! Need to Eat! Need to Live!

Tired of Waiting.

Postscript

How silly women are! Need to be told to get on with life!

Posted on Bukisa. 16th March 2009. Forgot password, cannot log into Bukisa anymore. LOL.

Men

This is a write-up I had written some 18-20 months back. I couldnt help but read it again. Its a fun read, and very true :-)

Ever since I've been living in this hill station, I've been hearing clichéd words like, "The weather here is totally unpredictable and complicated like women". For the past year, however, I have come to the conclusion that it’s a wrong statement passed around from one eager mouth to another eager ear!!

What do women want? A boyfriend knows because she verbalizes it. What do men want? Nobody knows because he never talks about it. When he does talk about what he really wants from his partner, he says, “Sex is the topmost priority!” Then he lists loyalty, honesty and commitment. So far so good.

Where then is the problem? The problem starts when you are having a conversation and suddenly he gets up and walks out. Why? No answer from him… no accepting phone calls, no replying e-mails, and no meetings. It’s like suddenly an impenetrable wall is built in-between….Suddenly everything gets cold! It keeps her guessing, and worried (did he have an accident? Is he sick?), what happened, what did she say that she shouldn’t have? What was so colossal that it brought out a reaction like that from an otherwise loving and caring partner? What?

Just as suddenly he comes back, and the old camaraderie begins. Thus it goes on and on.

It’s been a guessing game played out in the past year or so, keeping me on my toes and my heart in my mouth! It’s like a cloud that comes and goes away without any fore-signs. There’s no point in speculation and retrospection, you’ll never get anywhere. I realized, it’s better to keep your mind locked up somewhere where men are concerned.

That is why, my dears, I say, men are as unpredictable as the Shillong weather!

Cheers!

Love

What is love?
If not a game?
We fight for it
and once achieved,
Only to be forgotten.

Hide and Seek

A game
We played as kids.
Hiding in corners, behind trees, in closets and under beds.
Waiting to be spotted.
Tensed, yet excited.

A game
We play as adults.
Hiding real emotions, behind masks, in barrage of words and actions.
Waiting to be caught.
Excited, worried and tensed.

Do you remember

Do you remember?
The very first time we met
The very first time we talked.
Did you then feel
The earth beneath you shake?
Did you then know
We were meant for each other?
For eternity.

Five Saddest Moments in Lux Perfect Bride

The final countdown to Lux Perfect Bride has already started. There have been so many moments which were sad, whether real or conjured. Priyanka’s dejection at the rejection of Raj’s dad and family, Gurpreet’s tears whenever she felt slighted, Rumpa’s tears in her confrontation with her mom and the tears of every girl who left the show. However, the following are my five saddest scenes.

1. The AV on Priyanka in the first episode where she says she’s motherless [and have gone through many ordeals] is looking for a family and a mother who treats her like her own daughter. One of the saddest scenes and one that moved Rajbeer. Was this where the seeds of love [aka, concern] were planted?

2. The gala round when Pooja is confronted, quite unexpectedly, by the AV showing Rumpa and Gurpreet bitching about her. Talking about her manipulations and looks [that she does not have a symmetric face] were blows below the belt. Pooja cried on the show for the first time and the way her eyes and face were bloated could not have been acting.

3. When Nandita tells Vivek on her way out of the show that she has a feeling for Yashdeep [and not for Vivek] and would like to know him better outside. Even though Vivek acted manly and did not show his sadness, it was one of the saddest moments. It was sadder because he neither showed his misery nor cried!

4. When the brides' mothers had come to the mummy mahal to stay with them and Priyanka's sister was conspicuously absent. The reaction on Priyanka's face was undescribably upsetting!

5. During the tasks for the brides when Gurpreet is supposed to give a coconut to her future mother-in-law, and didn’t have any one to give to. The forlorn and desperate look on her face, when she reaches the mothers and stands hesitatingly, was indeed one of the heartbreaking ones.

Five Funniest Moments in Lux Perfect Bride

Lux Perfect Bride is a so-called reality show on Star Plus, a channel that is aired in India. This is one show which I got into when I was channel surfing and heard Kailash Kher's beautiful song which was the title track. I have since followed the show, off and on, sometimes liking it, other times totally finding it monotonous. The show is now nearing its end and the final episode will be aired on December 12th 2009.

The format of the show is a little unconvetional where, as the title suggested, 10 girls vied for the title of Lux Perfect Bride from among five grooms. India being a country where marriages are believed to be made in heaven and lasts more than a lifetime, it is an apt setting for the show. The show organizers have no doubt tapped on the craze for weddings in India.

As we enter the final week of Lux Perfect Bride, let’s relive some of the outstanding moments --- be it funny, sad, happy or fully scripted ones! Today we look at some of the most rib-tickling moments. Following are my five most funny moments.

1. In the initial days, the kunwars played with a dartboard and named a girl they liked. Yash started by saying, “Gurpreet is a sweet girl. She’s very bubbly.” One of the kunwars interrupts asking, “How is her height?” Yash says, “Her height is good! She’s heighted!” That coming from a Pilani dude, LOL! Was he being funny? I don’t think so. It just looked like a slip of tongue.

2. In the first gala round, when the contestants were asked to name a bride/groom they would like to know, Rajbeer points out Priyanka saying, “I don’t know her name but I was really touched when I saw her AV”. When it was Priyanka’s turn, she says, “I don’t know your name”, Rajbeer interrupts saying, “Its Rajbeer”. Priyanka replies, “No, not you, the one in red, the one behind you”. LOL. It was Yashdeep!

3. Rumpa’s mom informs Rumpa that Hitesh has confessed to having many girlfiends. When the AV is aired in the gala rounds, Hitesh tells the whole world, “I’m worried. I hope Rumpa’s friends don’t come and ask about my boyfriends” LOL! What a slip of tongue! This no doubt will bring in many punters talking about his liking to push guys to the bathroom! First Vivek, then Priyanka’s brother :)

4. Sudeshrani Chauhan’s bearded husband is shown, in an AV, teary-eyed in one of the gala rounds which later prove to be an onion-cutting session. When Sudeshrani sees it she says, “I was wondering who this bearded man was and why he was crying. Koi jawani ki dino ki chupa ashique toh nahin.” LOL! Did she have many, I wonder. This lady, though, has a very quick tongue and an answer to every question.

5. When Pooja was voted the Bride of the Week (BOW) the second time, she invited Hitesh to meet her mom over tea. As soon as Hitesh enters, he hugs Pooja’s mom and promptly sits on her lap. LOL. Such immaturity and impetuosity never has the television seen!